october has been a hard month for me for the past 3 years. with the anniversary of my beautiful friend Noelles death, and this year with an old friend, Noah’s passing, it has gotten even more difficult. With the sun setting sooner, the sky becoming more clouded as the season of autumn begins to creep in, my thoughts become darker. i begin to think about what i have been doing for the past year to better my life and myself, and i realize i could be doing more. i start to make goals for the up coming year, and hope to be consistent. but it’s always a cycle. the next year comes around and i begin to lack in bettering myself and sulk into my comfort zone.
i think about noelle and wish i could have done more or live life more fully for her to live through me. i wish the season change and her anniversary wasn’t the only thing that reminds me to do more for her. i know she would have wanted everyone to live by giving love and spreading happiness. i hope to keep that in mind for the rest of the autumn-winter season, on to the next few years.
She Blooms In June - by Lilia 